Renungan ku ....keseorangan.

My kids all grown up...

Time flies...1989 till now 2011.
22 years...whew!!! A lifetime of heartaches yet most of it is filled with joy..
Joys of bringing up my kids...and now they are grown ups..
Responsible loving kids of mine... kids no more.:))

Looking at their pics when they were small...such naughty kids!!!
And now!!! Am very proud of them.!!!
Luv U Gals/Guy So Much!!! Mmuaaahh!!!

Living Alone...

For days i was worried, cried and felt total sadness,

Felt like I am being abandoned for good...

Helpless with what is going on in my life..

My children are leaving me..!!!

Drastic words...yet reality is, they are only going for their further studies,

I am happy for them to see my kids achieving their dreams and ambitions..

Living life, adapting to new environment...

I know they can't be with me at all time...they deserve to live their life

As parent..I am letting them go, with a heavy heart...

Sigh.:((

Of course i feel sad,becus there is no one beside me,

Not a single person to talk to...

That was my feeling....BUT!!!

I have been a survivor and i fight back!!!

Fight back this feeling that will only make me down...

Why should i feel down??

For now...

I wish to start living again for ME!!!

Selfish??? I am not...for I have given my all to the family...

I know someone will gloat...huh!!!

U may gloat all u want...at my being left alone!!!

I only see it as an opportunity for me to grow!!!

It is time for ME - being lonely is only how u perceive it...

I have a lot ahead of me...and i intend to make my life worth living...

The only regret is the time I have wasted to a person who does not know how  to appreciate the 'FAMILY'!!!

LONELY - is when u let it to be even if u are in the midst of a big crowd!!!!

To living alone!!!

For I know wherever my children are, they are always near in my heart and vice versa..

MMuuuah...i luv u all!!! 

 

How Do u Know....Guts,Instinct???

Deep down , gut feeling says a lot of things..

But, I wish it is not reality...

Hati dah berkata-kata...kenapa tak admit je!!!

Demi nak percaya yg ia adalah benar..

What a romantic fool, I am!!!

Guess...trusting someone still takes some time for me to accept,

especially when it involves my heart...

I feel again, yet i do not trust...

Putting doubts in my mind and heart...

So...my assumption, 

If he is the one...then time will tell how sincere is he towards me...

Whether he is just a jerk or just plain honest towards me...

Kalu ada jodoh ... ada lah!!!

Beautiful.....!!!!

Woke up, happy n positive...eager to face loads of junk aka work!!!
Shifting gear to uphill mode!!!
Poket kosong...haha, tp hati penuh!!!
My kids.,don't worry...
Yr mum is a survivor kan...!!!
Luv U all!!!

My tots & memories...

They say it is not good to look at the past...,
Only for me...to look back cus' dah beginning to lupa citer2 lama..hehehe
Looking back about my kids...how it was with them...
From kecik cinoni n now dah besar2 belaka..
All leading their lives...dah pandai berdikari...
Guess.. i have done my duty quite good.. :))

Am happy with what they have become...
confident with purpose in life...achieving their hopes and dreams..
To my anak2 - this blog will be my memoirs of U (the one i love with all my heart..)

Tak lupa juga to my frenz - 'all' 
 Being with me, teaching this silly woman to lead a good life...
Thanks again my dear frenz...Luv u guys!! 

Still New..

Still adjusting to this blog...
In time will add my views ... do have another blog was and is active at...
 For now...to life,family & friends...hello!!!